THe coin Flips....

With a sudden burst of energy i rose up..My eyes were still begging for a shutdown,with a feeling of being drugged i got up ,and the first thing i noticed my pocket was weightless..Good God..there goes my 45 bucks and...my watch:O..gone....Penniless..Not a Penny more,nothing to go lower than this!
And the harsh reality smacked me hard on my face....The Almighty had let me down,once again..Shell shocked , i managed to get up and keep my footing..The curious on goers cast a casual look and started whispering among themselves..I dusted my pants and moved on..I wanted to scream scream and keep on screaming till my anger subsides , but i realized there were better things to do than screaming..Frustrated, i moved on ,knocking on every door that appeared to be of a shop's and begging them for help...Every one refused...Some shut the door on me,some shooed me away as if i was a dog,some gave a firm No,some a polite one...The end result was the same everytime, a NO...

The two sides of a coin...

9.30 am,

Time to move on..Another 12 hours to go..I hated this business style mathematics..and them being associated with life...It was a total disaster according to me...But i had no other choice...There were no familiar Michael screams from my mother and no more buses to board,no more familiar "sorry maam' excuses"Life had almost taken a 180 degree shift..I moved out of the station,greeted by the familiar hoots of the hawkers and the vegetable sellers,and the taxi drivers pestering the travelers..Drained of all energy i walked past them and into the sea of people ..The streets were getting meaner by the day and i pulled by a tea shop to have my breakfast....

The weight of my pocket was getting lower day by day,and for the first time in my life i was getting tensed...

Slightly shaken by the developments over the past few days,I moved forward...Thats the last thing i remembered....

Turning the Pages...

As I took shelter against the rain,in the road side,i glanced around @ the company i was in...An elderly couple, two college guys colouring the air grey with smoke..I glanced @ the watch.It was 4.45 pm...I had only five hours to find myself shelter for the night..The streets of mumbai were getting tougher to handle by the passing day..Getting greeted everyday by mean eyes , fighting for food , just what the doctor ordered.My life hit an all time low,to put in Stock market paralance...
Its' been 3 days since i came here...And there has been positive that has happened..except for the fact that I had managed to get food somehow...My cash balance was also a cause for worry...I looked around and went to a shop and inquired if there was any job that he could offer....I had already made up my mind for the big 'NO'...It was no big surprise when he gave the answer..That was shop number 60 in 3 days...Now thats a great number...20 rejects a day at an average...GREAT...The rain had stopped and I stepped outside and went to the metro station where I decided to while away the night.......

I lied down..53 rupees and a watch..Thats all I had...I was almost broke...I silently prayed and hoped that God would respond sometime soon...

A few years later....

Well...I had taken a small break from writing....Now that I am back...Let me forward things a little bit...Michael,finished schooling barely... First entries just threw light on the brighter side of life,how things never go wrong and God is on your side..


The next set of entries just tells how Miserable life can get.....There is absolutely no getting away from the darker side of life..Things start falling apart and the damage done is beyond human repair...A drastic change in attitude influenced by the sheer myth of "experiencing " life...The proof for Darwins "Survival of the Fittest" theory....

The Start...

Monday,07.30 am

14 hours earlier I had broken up with her..There was not a single feeling of remorse or guilt for ditching a girl like that..Why???? Clueless as i was , i was rolling on the bed waiting for the ""Mike get up"" chant by my mom..And all freshed up after yesterdays' events i woke up and got ready for school..It was a great feeling in the morning..(Hey wait a minute!!..I am supposed to feel Bad!!!)That was when i realized,Love first sight is not love..just mere infatutation..I did learn a lot...Didnt' I??????

School was fun as always and whenever my eyes crossed Rithika's there was this familiar feeling lurking inside me...I gave her a "I dont' give a damn look" and carried on with my work...The school elections were around the corner and it was time to contest for the coveted posts of SPl,Culsec.,etc..My childhood friend Hari was standing for the post and with the amound of popularity he had in school,he was sure to breeze past the elections...I met with Hari,and told him that there was just no way of losing this elections...And at this point,he asked me "man,Y dont' u stand"..Now that was unexpected...I went completely blank nd then told him..."Yeah Probably...Don't know if thats possible with the disciplinary background i have..."Anyways ill give it a shot..

That day,when the teacher was filing nominations,my name went up all of a sudden..."woa...thats Cool....ELECTIONS??Me???..hehee....."

The finishing Touch......

Michael Mortetti,The new Beginning....

The bell rang....And she picked up her phone..." Hi darling...".....I was like.."well, I want to talk to u abt certain matters.."trying to keep my voice as low as possible so that she could sense the emotional mask i was trying to put..."whats it abt.???"..."Well...Its been great generally,over the last few months ,but i think its affecting my studies..We should set our priorities right....."expecting a Roar from her....A few seconds there was dead silence..No one uttered a word and i was just hoping she wouldn't cry....."why didn't u tell me in the first place.."kick starting her series of "Mike is a bastard,I am an angel "I wanted to pull this off desperately...and was looking at the heavens and listening to her half attentively..and then the phone landed with a thud....The engaged tone came....That makes it two....GOD!!!!